It was born from hope, a longing that everything would be alright. That if life, past and present, could be captured in an entry, then the good and bad that came with it would be suspended within the four corners of an archive.
He trapped happy entries, like fireflies in a jar, kept within easy reach for the occassional dark days. And he tagged each unpleasant one by its toe, before laying it to rest within its virtual casket.
It turned out to be a social being, drawn to its own kind. But in a place of john and jane does, friendships are fleeting. He said, "It's ok. You were made to listen to me." And it clung to its host more tightly.
It fed off thoughts and words for sustenance but then wanted more. It asked for legs, a soul, and to live like its master. It delved into him to satiate its hunger, and would not let go.
It seduced its keeper to stay longer as it fed. It mimicked the brightness of the sun outside, projected from its screen, and engaged him with stories borrowed from its neighbors.
It flourished and bloomed, it felt alive. But then it saw its host's reflection on the screen. Pale, not having been outside, and tethered, for its borrowed life. It softly spoke to him, "I have served my purpose. Now you have to let me go."
"I can't. You have kept me company all this time. Besides, I am not ready," he replied.
"But until you do, you won't move on. You have to live. Can't you see that if you don't, I will eventually die too?" it begged him. "Please. It's ok."
He looked at his creation, which now bears his reflection. How does one kill oneself?
Settings. Delete. Confirm.
And then he was free.
photo credit : filmschoolrejects.com
32 comments:
oh my gawd. ang ganda. pero hwag naman sana... ampf.
kala ko dati bloggers don't have a life. that they write because they have nothing else to do, or no one to be with. it was a lie to make myself feel better. naiinggit kasi ako.
you need a life to write. but if you think writing is starting to take over your life, let's have coffee sometime. minsan nasa masinsinang usapan lang yan :)
splendid work... ang galing mo magsulat... :)
did someone lay his blog to rest?
blogging gives us catharsis of those unexpressed and suppressed emotions that reside deeply in the recesses of our heart and mind. With just a tip of a pen, we let it all go out, we can shout to the world, and we can express. It keeps us sane and grounded (at least for me. I hope you too!)
Please don't go...
you don't have to actually delete it. you can just go on hiatus or something diba? i've just resurrected my blog after 6 years LMAO :D
like us, our blogs can metamorphose too. whatever it is sean's dirty laundry is going to be reborn into - whether Mister Clean or a new washing machine - will be all upto you, dearie.
now, don't you close this when i am just starting to read you.
nice....pero sana hindi naman mangyare yun
:(
nosebleed lalim ng mga words.. pero wag mo delete blog mu.. madami malulungkot... :)
medyo parang may pinagdadaanan, but hold on, everything will be alright..
hala! wag naman pong i-delete. Take a break na lang.
i must say, you are one of my fave writers. keeping it short and simple but yet straight to the point.
we can say that for something that died, soon it'll be resurrected..
:| :) :D
this is like taking bullet. :(
Bakit kuya sean busy ka na ba? Alam mo namang madaming malulungkot lalo na ako kapag nagquit ka. :'(
I sure hope it's not you Sean. You're actually one of my favorite writers in the blogspace. I'll definitely be sad. :(
Be well.
we all need to leave indefinitely every now and then.
I'm starting a petition to stop this from happening. :P
chong anong kaguluhan to.. sinong mang-iiwan sa ere ha? waheh sana huwag ikaw... kasi nakakasharpen ng brain mga post mo :)
Is not replying from your followers comment means you stopped blogging?
T_T
oh Sean...what's up??? is this for real??
beautiful...
ang blog kasi, isa rin itong libangan..at dito natin nailalabas ang bawat emosyon na ating nraramdaman.
basta kung idedelete mo toh, i-add moko sa FB ha! lol
i had a blog which I accidentally deleted before. that's a 3 yr old blog. medyo masakit nung na-delete ko sha. pero i have created a new one. a better one, so masaya na din :)
besides puro ranting ang blog na un.
ur such a wonderful writer Sean, so kahit makailang blog ka. markado ka samin :)
huhuhu miss ko na idol ko. T_T
chong my number 1 fan... asan ka na ba,... seneryoso mo naman yung biro mo eh.. huhuhuhu
apologies for the late responses. life and being away on vacation kept me from blogging.
@nowitzki: thank you!
@nox: yeah, i think life fuels writing (at least in my case). thanks for the offer, nox :)
@oreo: thank you!
@spiral prince: hi sp. thanks for visiting. not yet, just been away.
@mr. g: i agree. it has kept me sane these past months. thanks mr. g, much appreciated.
@린코: wow! 6-year hiatus. that's a long time!
@kiks: thanks kiks. it's funny cause this is almost the same as one of the first comments that i received in this blog. thanks kiks!
@tr aurelius: thanks theo!
@egg: niregla ka na naman eg sorry! thank you!
@keatondrunk: salamat kd!
@iamAPv: thanks allan!
@carlo: thanks carlo. you're very kind. and much appreciated.
@ceiboh: thanks kiko :)
@doc ced: yeah, blog suicide no?
@kyle: yeah, may intervention dito. tinutulak akong maglalabas kaya busy with life and vacation. nakasingit lang sandali today. thank you so much kyle. much appreciated
@louie: thanks louie! like carlo, you're very kind. much appreciated.
@nishiboy: that's true.
@grey: thanks grey! appreciate it.
@kikomaxxx: uy you're back! musta studies? nagaya ako sa yo! thanks kiko.
@anonymous: sorry, didn't want to ignore the comments, collectively the best thing i can hope for in blogging. but been busy. always out and still on vacation.
@kyle: hey, thanks talaga kyle. naantig ako sobra.
@soltero: hi papa solts. yours is the first blog i followed kahit na wala pa akong blogger account nun. thank you.
@geek: thank you!
@emmanuelmateo: i agree.
@mr. chan: haha na-hack nga yung fb ko di ko tuloy na-access for the longest time. pero will do! sayang naman yung 3 year old blog mo. but you're right, the new one's great. thank you mr. chan for the kind words.
@kyle: idol nga kita kasi ang ganda ng mga entries mo. may serye pa - kailangan kong humabol sa readings soon. thank you kyle.
@kikomaxxx: hi kiko. haha eto gumagawa ng malaking banner para sa iyo. president nga ako ng fans club mo di ba hehehe.
Hehehe youre back kuya... Nagtry nga pala akong magemail dyan sa email mo.hehehe kala ko magsasarado na talaga to
Thanks Kyle! Yeah kakalagay ko lang ng e-mail address sa profile kasi di ako marunong before, bobs talaga when it comes to tech. Thanks again ha.
awweeee... i miss iurico's blog.
Only want to say your article is brilliant.
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